Monday, April 11, 2011

朋友的话..


第一次写华语post了..有点奇怪的感觉,没想到会是用华语来画上句点了..可能英文字穷了..无法把全部的话说出来..或许换个语言会比较好些吧..

真的不想用吵的来完结一切..真的不提高语气,就不能把意见完全的发表了吗?我真的像你所说的那么爱面子吗?或许你习惯了在荧幕前吧你的想法发表出来..没想过我所说的东西吧..
你想过为什么我所强调的你我朋友之间的分别吗?

或许你没听过你的朋友对你说 "真不懂为什么,我朋友的女友们都爱找我谈天" 当我看过去他的荧幕,发现原来你的名字也在当中..你真的没有其他的选择了吗?偏偏是我身边的朋友?是我看得自尊太重的问题吗?在我听到这些话仿佛像在给人嘲笑说性无能一样..当幸的是因为我的能耐力好,所以没闹出事端来吗?

你试过听这些话吗?从十多年的朋友到认识几个月的朋友..就那么小的空间,你都看不眼吗? 从前到现在,我总是需要等人家为我打分..可是你曾经为我加冕吗?总得等人来评分,感觉真的那么好吗?或许就这么简单的 " 我的朋友" "你的朋友" 我也不能好好的表达让你知道..真的很失败吧?

看着你告诉人家,你与一个年纪十多岁的人谈天..你还可以告诉人家说你们谈得来..因为有同样的偶像..难道你真的知道他的性格?一个做着工,收着薪水还可以指着老板骂粗话的人,性格再好也应该有个限度吧?在你们谈天的背后..你想过人家把你们的话题当作新闻报道..难道在银幕前,你会听得到?就这么简单的道理..吵了这么多次都不能明白吗?

对我的意见,是听回来的..还是人家的意见,你真的搞清楚了吗?为什么总得把事情告诉了全部人,再去善后呢?这种属于冲动吗?真的想清楚了要分享的对象..了解了后果才说的吗?

好了,这些都是我心里的想法罢了..还记得,说过当回朋友..或许大家会努力改变了,再挽回吧..可是算了..或许真的不适合了..

真的累了..希望下一个,会是一个有很好表达能力的人吧..一路好走了..幸福吧..


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Sunday, March 27, 2011

Break Free.

Month ago, a very worst tragedy happened, a tide that is a little tiny more huge than ordinary come from deep sea. Have flush away life, joy, happiness, civilisation from japan. As the mother nature wanted to show that what man power can do compare to mother nature herself. And what man power could do was just impact from the economic and of cause the joy and happiness that we are having until that moment. And what mother nature do were take back whatever she want in a wink of eye. That show us who the boss.

But the moment japan getting through their hard times, so am I. But for me of cause not the tsunami, while i don't even know how to swim in the water but swim in the tide of relationship and friendship. If it is compare to normal, atleast there would be a post or two related to the tragedy. But drowsed in my own tsunami make me can't effort to spare my mind for it.

Sometimes, when there somethings that you don't deserved to know. Just don't insists to do so, it end up you're hurting yourself. No matter it is a thought, a speech, a person, a picture or so. The result is same, hurt. Or sometimes, a friend that realistic enough that make you feel ignorance in normal times. But when its come to problem, this realistic friend would have offer a better help than those who so call "brother". Even their offer come with term and conditions but it might fulfill your need to solve the problem in the moment. But those who dearest to you, its only applicable when both of you and your "brother" have faith enough. Or else they would come close enough to you, stab you on the weakest point of yours without you even realize it.

Learn to protect yourself. If you strong enough to handle the problem yourself, try not to look for help. This the most practical way, only you know what you want. When there is " Non of you business " seriously do not into it...Let it go...

Tired of complaining...I hope the next post could be either some sharing or some joyful or something similar. Too much negative pulse have been send out lately, have to make a move now. Ganbaru desu, brighter day ahead.

bye than, have a nice day =P

Sunday, February 27, 2011


Its been sometimes since I have started to blog. To improve my english was the very first reason where i wish to started blogging, as the times goes by...I realize it could be a diary to me as well, that I can record down every step that i have taken, and than I started to feel that I'm not those people who can confess to everybody of my thought around me, so I have hardly to blog nowadays...Its really been awhile since the last post I ever did. And now, I feel like the blog is just a 3rd dimension trash can, which you could throw all your good, bad memories into it and there will be always a space for you.

Somewhere before Chinese new year of 2011, there some bad thing happened on me in my previous company which have triggered me to take up the offer that have been long waited me. Monday of this week, was the joining of mine in this new company. Everybody where looking at me with some weird look shown on their face, no matter where I go in this industrial. The question is always asked " how old are you ? you look so young. " I hate this question. Which make me feel that i have been underestimated. Or is this the only impression I could ever provide to all of you? But one day, I shall let you feel proud to have known me with my achievement.

And it is almost a year since I have shift over to here, its a new working, living environment, but so far I think that I have manage to over come this trouble. The problem is that I'm just too anti social, and the city is just too big that make me have to describe myself as a atom instead of dust as usual. And these atoms is always side by side to create something big, its only one word "tight" to describe the life like this, it is not comfortable at all, I look into my contact, there a lot of name appear to be, but I always imagine...If one day, there is something happened on me, will there a single one I could rely on except my family ? This is totally not comfortable! is this because of my anti social has become anti comfortable ? And so on the happiness and everything around me ? Last time I use to answer everything with a smile on my face, but I feel like smile of mine have long gone, its no more sincere. Its because I have grown up ? or the true smile need to combine with naive only could be pronounce as sincere ?

For me, its happened to be gaming was the shelter for me, I could stop my complicated tropical monsoon mind while I'm gaming, but while ago I have make up my mind to stop myself from addicted to it, so I could focus on my career. But the worst thing is the more you thought about it, the more its come back to you. Its always a contra effect behind it, is that I have used the wrong way or what the law of attraction effect? Something happened on me and make it feel wanna flee from the realistic, and lost of the proper time to rest. And there is non from the contact that could ever consult me or just even sharing. And made my respective gaming activities has convert into very unhealthy to rely on, it make me hardly to drag myself back to the realistic. And the rest option is to plug-in my hard disc, let the music play non stop, and stop me from thinking when i going to sleep. Its totally unhealthy activities i going through recently.

If it is possible there somebody could read me. Those around me, some are too old to handle all this small matters, some are too young to talk about all this stuff, and the rest is I don't really look up for their suggestions. I wonder will it one day I'll be reported sudden death in front of the computer as youngster non stop gaming and I'm stored too much within me and my mind burst off.

Sometimes it just fine to being alone. To have some kind of travelers life, just passing by without left over a single trace, The bag pack is the only thing left be lost. That is just fine...It is just too good to being naive.

Wish my day gonna be good.

bye than, have a nice day =P

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Lesson 111

Great person left their great legacy,and love is always part of their motivation as well. But for this love thing, could be judge from lot of points of view. There a sad tragedy happened in this lovely days 9th December, 16 days before Christmas.

Thursday, December 9, 2010
Kuala Lumpur - A young man have give up his precious life spend of 22 years for a 4 months relationship with a girl he claim that it is the 2nd love for him so far. So he committed suicide and jump off from 14th floor apartment, reported dead and he break somebody car's wind screen.

So for this young man's name should be somewhere in the facebook, can be found easily with one single click on any online search engine. But for this post the name is not so important, what i trying to bring out was the lesson here, simply name it lesson 111 for no reason.

For what had happened we shall not judge it, but for the person who have read this news should be reminded, DO NOT TRY THIS NOT ONLY AT HOME, BUT EVERYWHERE. Its really pain, trust me. This is some of my own opinion.

First thing is, I think if you tell you parents or your family, that you wanted to die because you break up with a girl that you really fall in from 1 day to any possible times. They would really kill you their own, first is to let the whole world blame on them to try their very best to protect you from being discuss by everybody that might end up spoiled your name. second is they are really upset because of this foolishness. And this call the power of love.

Second thing is, you claim that the girl was one in a millions, but than you suicide because of her. First, the girl is still alive out there man, you love her but than you put her in this position where everybody look at her like killer, can't imagine the life of her after all this have happaned. Will she live under the shadow of this tragedy or she can just walk away ? immatured minded, could it be this is one the reason that she leave you? I believe if a girl that love you hope that you could granted the power to own the world by her's love, rather than you give up the world just for her. And this is call the power of love also.

Third thing is, what is in your mind that make you publish the countdown for your suicide in the public ? you think this is a heroic move ? failure action movie that the star fall from the apartment accidently ? you have just created a really really bad example for those who have read all these nonsense. Don't you think that this is totally irresponsible ? you have leave all these mess and let everybody to clean it up for you. It might really cause a adverse effect for the public, might even impact our following generation think that suicide as a solution.
No! It Is Always A Big No No For SUICIDE.

Your family have given you your life and everything, never ask for anything in return. And you give up your life because that few confession mean everything for you ? When you have so much love to be given away, why don't you think of you family ? You can't imagine what you have cause your family, friends, the one in a millions girl and the public. They will continue their life no matter what, but the impact is always there, like a scar, no pain but when you look into it. You will remember what had happened, always....

When it come to love, think of your family first, when a girl say no to you, it is a task for you to look for somebody else that suit you better! When there a problem always a SOLUTION not SUICIDE please check your spelling! SOLUTION NOT SUICIDE

By the Way, Rest In Peace Alviss. Never thought that i post this sad news after i have been busy. Its come a little bit late, but this is for my future revision of myself. Hope that my following post could attach a little bit of picture =(

This post shall end here.

bye than, have a nice day =P







Monday, August 2, 2010

The Answer Was, You...


A random day last week,while I was bathing...there a thought come knock on my head...

"Bury my body, do not build any monument, keep my hands outside so that the world knows the person who won the world had nothing in his hands when dying"

This is what my teacher use to pumped into my head when i was still small...

It mean we will goes in the same way we came, there will be nothing left when we die, no matter this quote is true or what...but its depends on how you think, we must have a positive thought bout this quote...or else it sound like leading us into a peaceful world where everybody end up wearing leaf, and climbing tree are the only entertainment...I think adding a speech behind it will be better...

Bury my body, do not build any monument, keep my hands outside so that the world knows the person who won the world had nothing in his hands when dying, *"do won the world before you are dying"

No matter what your religion or culture, we are the answer where we born to answer a question "finish up the essay which starting with " I " on your own word" we should embrace our dream...we can fill it up with whatever we hope to...as there is no limit of your word usage in this essay, so if you are wasting your time like me for the moment, is time to wake up with some brainstorming...find out what you which but not yet done for the moment (do think of positive) no matter how hard it make to be done...

As the quote said, we had nothing when we are dying...but if you're a person who won the world, i believe your greatness will stay with your people as how the quote has passing to me...do something great but good to the world let the people remember you, participate on this race of life!...or try to clap your hand thousands times in a minute (who knows it might happen one day) and let your name live in the book of world's record let the coming generation know bout you. Life is just once, you can think twice...but it won't happen twice.

bye then, have a nice day =P

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Dota And Me...

On my last assignment, I receive a question " find information on one of your hobbies and make 2 print screens of your hobby from your search results. " this is what i did on that question...

Picture 1

Picture 2

as shown on above, i could tell you DOTA was my hobby instead of addiction...normally it fill up my time whenever or wherever I am...and i never ashamed on this =]

whoever played Dota they should know IceFrog as well...as this both name linked together...IceFrog was the creator of Dota who influence over millions of people all over the world with his hobby, people fight for it, bet for it, learn from it will there killing out there that i don't know ? xD but actually I learn a lot from Dota, this is not just pick up the mouse and can start playing, there strategy and spontaneity atleast your brain have to spin spin and spin while you playing this, better then jump around and pick up coin...this is how he impressed me...I started to play this about 5 or 6 years ago if not mistaken...I'm not professional player but just experienced, atleast some common sense...

There is no boring bout this Dota thing...and there a great news bout everyone like me...the new version is launching soon...there will be lot of fresh upgrade...after few month of waiting its finally done testing the version 6.68 and there will be lot of screaming for those couple again...

Say No To Dota

This is what i get on the few years back...and now my girlfriend actually will not stop me from playing unless i played it too " Crazy " or else it is " Yes To Dota " after all xD
But my new work is going to start soon...not sure if i can get my hand on it on the first place...here is the trailer of the latest version...i will finish my post here...

bye then,have a nice day =P

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Greed Is Good...

Watched the first episode of Wall Street last week...the place where i found this movie was on the cinema,the poster of Wall Street second episode, i never know there a movie with this title but there is a second episode...after surfing search engine...i realize the first episode was 20 years ago,Oh My Gosh...for better movie experience, i decide to watch the first episode to understand the movie background before the second...the two speech that i impress the most was "money never sleep" "Greed is good" it indeed a good speech, i barely addicted to is...but we can't normally use on conversation...i think lot of people can't really accept these sentence but it the truth and realistic...this is how we survive, looking forward this september...

bye then,have a nice day =P